Okay, now that I'm finally, really and definitely over you, I shall make new resolutions. I've been thinking back about what I've missed when I was with you and it seems... quite alot. So for starters, I'm going to cut down on my food intake!

Of course! It's easier said/type than doing it. But I'm going to try my best. I used to eat with you, sleep with you, then eat with you and then sleep with you. Now, I'm not going to do that. I'm going to have a very normal routine. Sleep at 10pm/2am and wake up at 10am/2pm. Hehe. Four meals a day? Now a nono. I'm going to cut to 3 first. In case I starve to death. Then slowly move to 2 a day. On the way, I'm going to downsize my servings too.

I'm currently a 55. I aim to get 50 by the end of the year! We shall see if I can accomplish that!

Chips too, a strict no. From today onwards, no more snacks! Until I reach 50, at least. :( I must persevere! I know how tempting hotnspicy chips can be. I will not surrender to it!

I've been addicted to swimming too. Just that I dont have a proper swimwear and swimming khakis. As you may know, I have a very limited amount of friends. Girlfriends only 2, and one of them will kill than to go to the pool with me! So... I can only rely on myself to create that habit!

Next, I'll look for a job. One that takes me seriously and pays well. Hehe. Need to save for my private cert and wardrobe! I want to have at least a 5k in my POSB always! And get more than 5 digits when I get to 23. It's a saving plan! Yes. So... 23 is about 4 years from now. I'm sure I can do it. Probably by then I'd have found myself a partner to live together for the rest of my life and that money would really come in handy. Whether a car or a flat to live in.

I want a bridal photoshoot in Shanghai, nonetheless. So that's going to cost a lot more. Sigh. So much for dreaming.

Whatever it is, after these two years I've came to realize that I really like to plan for the future. I don't want my future to be.... how to say? Cloudy? I need it bright and clear. And that's what he couldn't give me. I thought if I waited, till he finishes his national service, would he be able to settle down but I was wrong. Not about him, it's about me.

Appears I can't take the pain anymore. Maybe, he's out there telling our story and how badly I did. But we know it clearly in us there's no fault in any of us. We just live for what we believe in.

May the future be bright! ;D

Love, me.


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