I have to agree when some people say I like to make my own life difficult.

I have almost everything I want! A phone, a laptop, great hair condition(smirks), a puppy at home running, a stupid boyf, my own bed! Seriously? Why am I still so unsatisfied?

And yes, I can't deny the fact that I still yearn for more love. I want more things in life. I want endless flow of income and greatness! I just want everything to go my way. MY WAY.

I'm glad that people are willing to tell me what I've been missing out and what I should do to keep my life more in control. I'm glad to know that they know what I'm feeling and why I don't want to make certain decisions. I may not be satisfied enough but right now, is what I need my life to be.

A boyfriend that's always abusing me verbally, sometimes physically(LOL). A puppy that bites and scratch me. Crazy phone with limited games, laptop with missing keys and a fugly hair style. But, I like it that way. I don't want things to change. I don't want to leave my comfort zone.

Me, aside, I need a better platform to complain.

It's lame if I complain here and yet the person whom I want her to see this is not taking notice of it at all. Cus she couldn't be bothered in the first place. I'm not that important friend in her life. I'm all at her disposal.

Truth be told, I couldn't be bothered too. I have greater friends out there and all I need is a few more support from the others to tell you off. I'm not afraid of you or anything else to hurt our current relationship. In the first place, we don't really care about each other anyway. Maybe I should label you as an acquaintance instead of a friend.

You have a small or no brain at all. Why are things so difficult to understand when they are already put in the simplest terms for you? Why so pretentious? Why the fuck?

I just hope one fine day you'll come to be enlightened that all the comments were meant for you instead of the other innocent party. Oh wait, I already told you that! Please stop denying the fact that somebody out here is criticizing you. You're not that perfect. In fact, you're ugly, on the outside as well as the inside.

You have a very black heart. You treat everyone as though they are of lower status than you when you are just a stupid low EQ girl. The reason people are not retorting is because they understand the fact that they still have another few months to spend with you. That they are not ready to sabotage their future just because of you, dumb freak.

But I'm not the same.

I know I may not have the rights to say so much about you. I know that I'm wrong sometimes too. But ya, who cares anyway. I will not hesitate to fight back for the rights I own. I deserve more than you in this and you must get ready to commit into it, because I will make you.

Aren't things going on so smoothly for you right now? Holiday, shopping, fun. Leaving all the dirty mess for the ones remaining and thrown everything out of your mind. Whatever seems perfect for you will soon come to change. Because unlike your friends, I'm not that tolerating. I have my limits and they? They are reaching theirs soon.


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