ESSA VII LOVE
Hey hey.
My name is Vanessa. I'm a lazy bum who wants to do basically nothing
the entire day. I wear tshirt with denim short and my hair all puffed up which people always say it's oh-so too high. Vii doesn't stand for the numeric 5. It's my 'first' name. I love to be in love, and I'm seen with my lovey-dovey boyfriend, B wherever I go.
-anyway, there's more to me than meets the eye because i prefer to keep my internal organs under my skin.
Somedays, you want to break free from the outside world, just you and yourself and someone else that's so very much important than the rest. But life just won't let you. It expects you to see all the other people living in the world too. It forces you to do some things you never wanted to.
I don't want to pretend.
I want to live my life with just me and the love of my life. That's enough. I don't care about money or other people's impression. I'm 18. I want to live it this way so when I've grown up, at least I lived before.
Yet, nothing out there can grant this small wish. Because they say whatever you do now would affect your future. You should live your life now, hard and steady. So you'd be able to live carefree in the end. Why?
I can't even play, walk or even smile properly in the future. I want to live life beautifully. Am I wrong?
I got into a shitty school, have a shitty boyfriend that I loved so much, shitty attitude that won't change. What the fuck is wrong with my life?
Nothing I do is right. Even the blogshop is giving me problems. ):
